Life.....

I wonder....
Will it take me under.... I don't know..

Couple days ago tv catched my eye. There was a girl lying on hood of the car and look out to sky. I stopped! I want to do that too! I want watch to sky too. To relax and think about things, or even better; not to think anything!! I woke-up again, why I'm not doing that? Because I'm so crazy busy all the time. I'm only this busy when I'm in the city where my parents live, but why? Soon I realize that all things what I have to do here is something to do with things what I own. Eather my appartment, or my staff what is packed to my parents storage. If I would sell everything, or give away cos for selling would be too difficul, I would be happier. I would have time to enjoy everything, company of my friends and just life. Right now I'm getting pleasure for getting things done.

Today I was meant to be in Lahti, but I'm not. Just because running all things around my property. Why I have to have all these things? Why having own apartment makes someone to be happy? What are the things what makes people happy?

Pretty many people walk thru their lives with this normal formula; school, work, family, house.. I'm feeling that I'm not following the line. In school I kind of got half graduated, work I'm not doing at all, family.. well, I have many :) One in California, one in Kungsbacka, one in Märsta, also in Lahti and in Tansania. I don't mind walking different trail. Only thing is that people have a natural need to feel that they belong somewhere, that they are similar. I'm pretty much Outi, without i.

Tomorrow I'm gonna drive my trailer to Lahti (on BMX track). I have packed 4 strider bikes, 3 BMX bikes and 1 downhill bike with me. I couldn't fit in more. This is not the most common way for 26 years old person to live her life, but I can tell you that I'm happy. My biggest worry is that are everyone else too! I don't mean to underestimate anyone life. I just want everyone to be happy!

BMX news of the day, I made extension to my seatpost. Sometimes riders use those while warming up. Usually they have two different saddles, one for short and one for long seatpost. But I couldn't take my saddle apart from old seatpost, so I got to make extension..